The desire to be passive aggressive and say “fuck the world” has been burning in my mind. Burning like the bridges smoldering behind me.
Otherwise it’s been a good day.
Never realized how much i actually used to post on here. I’ve been having a ton of thoughts running around in my head so i might start posting again…no promises.
Wooden Heart-Listener
We’re all born to broken people on their most honest day of living
and since that first breath… We’ll need grace that we’ve never given
I’ve been haunted by standard red devils and white ghosts
and it’s not only when these eyes are closed
these lies are ropes that I tie down in my stomach,
but they hold this ship together tossed like leaves in this weather
and my dreams are sails that I point towards my true north,
stretched thin over my rib bones, and pray that it gets better
but it won’t won’t, at least I don’t believe it will…
so I’ve built a wooden heart inside this iron ship,
to sail these blood red seas and find your coasts.
don’t let these waves wash away your hopes
this war-ship is sinking, and I still believe in anchors
pulling fist fulls of rotten wood from my heart, I still believe in saviors
but I know that we are all made out of shipwrecks, every single board
washed and bound like crooked teeth on these rocky shores
so come on and let’s wash each other with tears of joy and tears of grief
and fold our lives like crashing waves and run up on this beach
come on and sew us together, tattered rags stained forever
we only have what we remember
I am the barely living son of a woman and man who barely made it
but we’re making it taped together on borrowed crutches and new starts
we all have the same holes in our hearts…
everything falls apart at the exact same time
that it all comes together perfectly for the next step
but my fear is this prison… that I keep locked below the main deck
I keep a key under my pillow, it’s quiet and it’s hidden
and my hopes are weapons that I’m still learning how to use right
but they’re heavy and I’m awkward…always running out of fight
so I’ve carved a wooden heart, put it in this sinking ship
hoping it would help me float for just a few more weeks
because I am made out of shipwrecks, every twisted beam
lost and found like you and me scattered out on the sea
so come on let’s wash each other with tears of joy and tears of grief
and fold our lives like crashing waves and run up on this beach
come on and sew us together, just some tattered rags stained forever
we only have what we remember
My throat it still tastes like house fire and salt water
I wear this tide like loose skin, rock me to sea
if we hold on tight we’ll hold each other together
and not just be some fools rushing to die in our sleep
all these machines will rust I promise, but we’ll still be electric
shocking each other back to life
Your hand in mine, my fingers in your veins connected
our bones grown together inside
our hands entwined, your fingers in my veins braided
our spines grown stronger in time
because are church is made out of shipwrecks
from every hull these rocks have claimed
but we pick ourselves up, and try and grow better through the change
so come on yall and let’s wash each other with tears of joy and tears of grief
and fold our lives like crashing waves and run up on this beach
come on and sew us together, were just tattered rags stained forever
we only have what we remember
Big thanks to my buddy, Dan Trapp, from @sensesfail for loaning me his C&C kit for the weekend. I can’t figure out if the shells are made of Atlantic salmon filets, or the river of slime from Ghostbusters 2. (Taken with instagram)
I would kill for a C&C set….i’d kill to play in Thrice too, but that’s another story
all of you must watch this. Must.
It’s been decided. I’m giving up school, learning chinese and moving to the mountains to live with the hermits. Peace out.
Anonymous asked: why don't you ever write touching posts about your lovely girlfriend? I heard that she is a very nice lady. Classy, some might even say.... a true class act.
I have a few reasons why i don’t write touching posts about my girlfriend mr.(miss.) anonymous. First and formost i want to say that Emma is amazing. The past 5ish weeks we’ve been dating have been amazing, i’ve never cared about anyone more then i have her. Second the reason i don’t write posts about her all the time is not b/c i don’t want to, I always have ideas for posts that i want to post, i just don’t do it. Why? She knows how much i care about her and if your a friend of mine by know you also know. For the people who really don’t know me or her why do they need to know or for that matter why would they care?
I love Emma, she’s my girl and i love nothing more then waking up next to her and holding her hand.
All i have to say to you is…SUCK IT! (word)
